I know it’s been a while and though I’ve been writing and into other things…I know, I may have let you down. These next posts are not in order to when I’ve written them. I’ve been going through things and as promised, this is about my life. I don’t know…I’ve spilled so much of my heart here that you either thing ‘poor guy’ or ‘this guy is really crazy.’ I am all of those I guess. I’ve sacrificed so many relationships for the physical that it really is a shame and I feel ashamed. I must move forward though for a better me.
So this next poem is about a relationship that I was in and shouldn’t have been in that ended…well, the way it needed to. Take a read and leave comments. I have to put WordPress back on my phone again. I hope you enjoy.
They said that guys fuck girls half their age all the time
They don’t fall in love with them
So how is it that I can open myself up so emotionally?
Like Moses parting the Red Sea I should have seen it in the scrolls
A savage like myself she is and about that biz she, walked up like this was Mortal Kombat ripping my heart out
Leaving me standing there dazed and confused like a bowl smoked with deep conversation to follow
Again I’m Mack truck blindsided guts all over this road called…lost
So now I stare into this mirror like, what kinda man am I, as the stars spell Karma in the sky
I palms up, outstretched arms begging to rearrange them but no matter what I was
Destined to feel this pain
Destined to regain a resolution to write some shit that will be felt for once in my chest that I reevaluate myself in the moment/s
This is real
A true Virgo she didn’t catch it as I asked her to access her inner cusper on the later end but see she’s Destined to be a Lion as I stare in this mirror like what kinda man am I?
To have compromised
At this point, unsure feelings?
The cards of life dealing me deuces like gtfoh man you should know better
I argue like I knew what this was in my heart never really scratching this mirror with diamonds
Am I not a king?
Hm. Even Solomon had his issues and was favored…wasn’t he?
Why is it “that which I will to do, I do not?” Don’t let me get too deep
See this goes way back before I could read that verse and it plagued me
So I stand here in this mirror reevaluating lust and love
As Coffee by Miguel plays
KonciouSLea Written after looking in the mirror